Maybe there is this part of our faith that we doubt and God knows it. He wants us to see this. He wants us to never doubt no matter what. No matter what horrible despicable things happens to us or others. He wants all of us to know that either there is a point where we will give up on him and blame him or we will like Job or Moses and never give up on him. To us these matters might seem so entirely soul wrenching, but to him- a God who is omnipotent and who’s glory and intelligence surpasses all comprehension- it is but a simple test that we must pass or we cannot receive what he has in store for us
whether that be in this life or the next.

We may think that our trails are worse than most, but if you read the Scriptures you will find the many stories of what people go through are probably worse than yours. Maybe if you live your whole life and you learn this one thing you have accomplished all that God wanted you to do in this life. This would be more evident that God does love us and in the deepest and most real way he proves us and purifies us like pure gold burnt and heated multiple times until it is clean and ready.

Its not that what you want God won’t give to you, its that what you want God knows is not what you need. What most of us need is the refiners fire that takes us to where we have never been before- the nucleus of our problems, not the outer shell that we can only see.

We may be really good people to ourselves and to others, but God knows what we are really made of. He knows where we will fall short. Where we need to be stronger: Read Either 12:27-28. Abraham 3: 23-27.

Our Trials are horrible, but a eternity never getting over our biggest problems and living a eternaly damned life is worse. Baby’s have been murdered, Women have been rapped, and the greatest symbol of love was crucified on the cross. Don’t be full of malice and hate, forgive and forget. To the very ones who he created and still loved, the Holy Savior said to those men who pierced him- “Father forgive them, for they know not what they do!”

Take heart you are a disciple of Christ.

Thanks for a heart-felt comment.

I’ve asked the same question. I don’t know the answer. But this I do know, God is love. Everything He does is for our growth towards immortality and eternal life. This is His work and I’ve learned not to counsel Him. Sometimes that easier said than done, but it is still true.

I’ve learned to trust Him, even though it isn’t always easy.

The reason I started this blog is to let others know the thorny path I have traveled with the hope that it might be helpful as they thread their way along their own.

Thanks for your comment. Others will read it and will have their faith lifted.

I hope your baby(ies) are doing well and are close to you. God bless.

Fast forward years. My faith in God was gone. How could I believe in a God who would not answer my prayers. I was in the middle of a serious addiction. Gripped with the reality, that I would lose everything that I cared about if I did not face the music. I began to pray. Prayers that were from a lifetime ago. God save me, because I can not save myself. My prayers ran from one to another with a desperation that I knew to well. Will he hear me? I did not have the tools to deal with this. Quietly my prayers were answered. I felt a love that I had never experienced before. I felt a strength that was not my own. I was lead to people who would help me. I learned to be gentle with myself because of a Father in Heaven who was gentle with me. He was a constant companion in a lost life.

Why then would God not answer the prayers of a young mother who was doing all she could, yet answer the prayers years later of someone who was living so far from a faithful life?

I think you hit the nail on the head. Each of us want to be reassured as well as to receive guidance in the area we’re praying about. Sometimes I think it’s the reassurance part we remember long after we forgot about what we petitioned the Lord for in the first place.

By the way, while I was at the viewing I felt the Lord’s Spirit in abundance. I didn’t know the man well, my wife’s relative we haven’t had a lot of contact with, but I’m sure glad we went. The Lord’s Spirit was reassuring those who came that their is life after death.

I’ll take that quote to heart…”double our faith lest we lose it”

I appreciate your site.
sharon